If you like watching home improvement shows, you may have
come across the show Holmes on Homes. It is one of my favorite home improvement
shows to watch. It is a show based on a contractor who goes in and fixes
mistakes that other contractors made and most of the time are fairly significant
issues. To the naked eye you cannot tell that something is wrong, everything
looks great cosmetically but as time goes on little things start to pop up that
make the home owner concerned that the work was not done correctly, or they
spring a leak or have no heat whatever the case may be, but on the surface all
looks fantastic.
Holmes comes in and rips down the walls and finds often ,
short cuts taken, shotty work, and sometimes serious defects in the structure of
the home due to neglect by the prior contractor.
When parenting a RAD child it is a lot like being Holmes from
the show I just described. On the outside our kid’s seem all put together and
capable and functional and nothing seems wrong. It is when we start to rip down
the layers that we start to find the underlying damage caused by inexperienced
and sometimes abusive caregivers. The work to repair the damage is extensive
and will take time.
Parenting a RAD child and helping them to heal is not a
weekend do-it-yourself job. It takes time and effort and experience and
commitment to the task at hand. Helping to tear out all the old messy work that
was done and re-build with a strong foundation in trust, love and safety is so
important for these kids. This is a job that will takes years and sometime’s a
lifetime to finish and you still may be finding work to do daily even when you think you are done.
I learned watching this show that repair work is much harder
than just starting new. Actually it is really hard ,and sometimes you have to
just work with what is already there and make due the best you can. A new
stronger beam may need to be butted up against the old one instead of taking
the old one out because the old one is holding up the foundation and can’t be
removed. You can make things better and structurally sounder but the old beam
will always be there.
I think that is a lot like our kids. We can come along side
of them and help to build new trusts, and boundries, safety and hopes and dreams but the
old memories and hurts will always be there along side the new and we have to
allow them to process through that and let the new beam take the weight of their
burden as the old beam crumbles away.
My “R” has so many levels and they run so deep that there are
days I am still finding new fears and history out after 2 years. Her outbursts and rage toward me are a reflection of her still being under construction. I have
committed to therapeutic parenting her to the best of my ability. I have not
been great at this in the past year and I am working to repair that. So I put
together a tool belt with all the things I will need daily to help me to be
the best contractor to help repair my “R” and help her to have a successful
life.
My RAD Toolbelt
A measuring tape of Patience
A can of EmpathyA Roll of Playfulness
A bottle of Love
Tools including:
Acceptance
ToleranceSelf control
Quiet in control voice
Curiosity
Each morning I am working on strapping on my toolbelt so that I can face the day head on and help my "R" to be fully restored. I look forward to seeing the finished product some day.